I wasn't able to move into a solution, I wasn't able to move into any kind of recovery, but I was not able to break that denial on my own. And just as in the story of Easter, where Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene are walking to the tomb to prepare Jesus's body for burial and they're wondering who's going to roll away the stone, because they knew that they themselves were not capable of doing that thing and they had faith that there would be somebody that there would be help to do that.