Powerlessness is the reason I needed AA, the reason I needed a program. Sometimes I'll count breaths, I'll count up to ten, then start over again with one. I had to accept that I was powerless over much more than just alcohol, because what would happen with me? Then a situation would come up in life that I would try to control that I could not, would make me angry when circumstances would not turn out the way that I wanted and I would want to drink to escape.