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Sober Cast: An (unofficial) Alcoholics Anonymous Podcast AA
Josh S shares how a life marked by abuse, mental institutions and suicidal thinking led into alcoholism, then shifted through AA into long-term sobriety. His talk mixes humour, philosophy and straight talking about sponsorship, spiritual growth and making room in AA for all kinds of “weirdos.”
1:15:36•11 Nov 2026
Josh S: From Mental Institutions and Mayhem to Meaningful Sobriety
Episode Overview
- Josh links childhood abuse, mental institutions and heavy medication with his later alcoholism, showing how deeply the disease can intertwine with trauma.
- He describes a clear shift in AA where the daily need to get loaded was lifted, and he no longer had to drink, even though he cannot explain exactly how it happened.
- Sponsorship and being useful to others are presented as central to his sobriety; he believes you only truly ‘get’ the programme by giving it away.
- Josh challenges rigid and authoritarian styles of AA, favouring a more loving, inclusive approach that welcomes atheists, people on medication and those with severe emotional issues.
- He frames the 12 steps as a process of subtraction, gradually letting go of ego, old defences and fixed beliefs to live more in the present and in service to others.
“If you take the 12 steps as I have taken the 12 steps, I hope you'll find, as I have found, that God gave you everything you needed to be complete the day that you were born.”
What emotional and inspiring tales of recovery are out there? Josh S from Hermosa Beach brings a mix of dark humour, raw honesty and spiritual curiosity to his share at the Pine Lake Saturday night speaker meeting in Seattle. You’ll hear him describe himself as “a rascal” who doesn’t follow rules very well, then lay out a past shaped by childhood violence, chaos at home, time in mental institutions and heavy antipsychotic medication from the age of 12.
He talks about suicide attempts, feeling like a misfit, and the bleak comfort he found in alcohol and drugs before getting sober on 1 July 2003 at 18 years old. Josh has a knack for turning pain into perspective. He paints vivid scenes of growing up with an alcoholic father, a brutal stepfather and a deeply confused sense of what love and safety looked like.
Yet he keeps circling back to the shift he experienced in Alcoholics Anonymous: the baffling moment when the daily need to get loaded was lifted, and the strange “something” that seemed to do for him what he couldn’t do for himself.
He talks about AA as “the weirdo centre of the known universe”, welcomes atheists and people on medication, and stresses that abuse survivors and those with “grave emotional and mental disorders” can recover too if they are honest with themselves. His story moves from extreme self-obsession and rigid step work to a gentler view of the programme as a subtraction process, where ego and old defences fall away and usefulness to others becomes the point.
If you’re juggling trauma, mental health and alcoholism—or you just like your AA with philosophy, jokes and a bit of black metal—this candid share might give you fresh questions to ask about your own path. What could happen if you simply kept putting one foot in front of the other, and let AA help you become “one of the good guys” too?
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