I Hope You Found Peace

I Hope You Found Peace

Rather than a traditional chat, you’ll hear Shan share a poetic letter-song addressed to her mum, built around the refrain, “I hope you found peace before you took your last breath.” She talks about picking up her mum’s ashes — “Just ashes in a little box, a lifetime of pain in my hands” — and how that final drive became a sacred moment to say everything she needed to say, including the words “I forgive you.” The episode speaks directly to anyone dealing with family wounds, difficult parents, or loss mixed with anger and love.

How do people find hope in the darkest times? This episode of The Recovery Pastor Podcast centres on Shan’s raw, faith-filled reflection after her mum’s death and the complicated grief that follows a lifetime of pain. Shan reflects on generational hurt — “You carried wounds from childhood like a badge of honour.

Faith runs through every line, with repeated prayers that Jesus met her mum “somewhere between the hurting and death” and that “the little girl inside finally heard you can let go now.” You’ll hear the tension between remembering harm and recognising the wounded child behind it, as Shan promises, “I won’t let your hurt have the final say in my peace.” This is gentle, honest listening for anyone in recovery who’s wrestling with complicated family ties, forgiveness, and the hope that those who’ve hurt us might finally find rest.

Pain has a way of spreading when nobody tends the flame” — and acknowledges that sometimes love means letting go of someone’s hand when their past consumes their thoughts. It’s about accepting what couldn’t be fixed, releasing what can’t be changed, and still choosing to pray for someone’s peace. If you’ve ever wondered how to hold grief and grace at the same time, this might speak straight to your heart.