Niki S. AA Female

Niki S. AA Female

What remarkable journeys have people faced head‑on against addiction? This AA talk from Niki S offers a raw, funny and brutally honest look at what long‑term sobriety can actually look like when life doesn’t tidy itself up on cue. You’ll hear Niki share her sobriety date of 12 December 2016 and how her home group, Fourth Dimension in Newport Ritchie, Florida, became a lifeline after relapse, chaos and deep shame.

Growing up in an alcoholic family, she knew AA language early, but still chased the freedom she felt at 13 when "alcohol gave you the freedom to not care". Her story moves through teenage drinking, failed attempts at moderation, and finally finding hope when a young sponsor told her, "God is inside of you.

There’s nowhere to go." The episode doesn’t shy away from the harder stuff: untreated alcoholism while sober, violence, psych wards, selling her body to pay rent, relapse after seven years, and the crushing self‑hatred that followed. Niki is clear that knowing she was an alcoholic wasn’t enough; working all 12 steps, sponsoring others and daily service were the tools that kept her in AA and gave her a life she didn’t think she deserved.

Motherhood, COVID, and a complicated love life all show up here, too. She talks about having a baby alone during hospital restrictions, trying to rebuild her spiritual life so she could be "a good mum", and learning to stop making men her higher power. A new sponsor later tells her bluntly, "You have no third step" around her husband, leading to fresh inventory and a painful but necessary look at her controlling and mean‑spirited tendencies.

If you’re curious how someone can fall apart, come back, and still laugh about splitting a tyre and spotting "good pants" at an AA meeting, this story might be exactly what you need today. Where might a bit more honesty and service change your own path?