S6 E6 Into Action with Yetti
S6 E6 Into Action with Yetti

That's NOT in the book!

Agent X and Yeti talk frankly about pain, spirituality and sobriety in AA, sharing how dependence on God, not people, keeps them sober. They mix humour, Big Book discussion and personal experience to show how recovery can be both messy and grounded at the same time.

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1:10:09•25 Apr 2026

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Spiritual Pain, God, and Getting Honest with Agent X and Yeti

Episode Overview

Recovery can include deep emotional pain while still having a steady sense of connection with a higher power.
Long‑term sobriety rests on dependence on God rather than sponsors, partners, children or other human beings.
Online AA meetings can be crucial for people who are isolated, rural, unwell or too broken to reach face‑to‑face rooms.
Resentments may show up as hurt, victimhood or self‑righteousness rather than obvious anger, and Step Four can uncover this.
Sponsors and members can be helpful, but they cannot force willingness or carry responsibility for another person’s sobriety.

“Job or no job, wife or no wife, we simply do not stop drinking so long as we place dependence upon other people ahead of dependence upon God.”

How do people find strength in their journey to sobriety? This chat between Agent X and Yeti on *That's NOT in the book!* gives a very candid look at what long‑term recovery in Alcoholics Anonymous can actually feel like. Agent X is upfront about being “a miserable piece of shit right now” while still practising the AA program, and that honesty sets the tone.

Rather than pretending recovery is a constant spiritual high, they talk about living with an “underlying current of God” even when life feels awful.

As Yeti puts it, “although I feel this incredible amount of emotional and mental pain… I do have this little, I don’t know, arc inside me where it is okay.” You’ll hear how both of them moved from relying on meetings and people to relying on a higher power, and why dependence on sponsors, partners, or kids can be so shaky compared to dependence on God.

They also talk about the role of online AA: from rural areas and hospital beds to early sobriety when even getting dressed for a meeting feels impossible, virtual rooms became a lifeline instead of a shortcut. The conversation gets practical too. They swap stories about Step Four, especially for people who “don’t get angry” but still carry hurt, self‑righteousness and quiet manipulation.

There’s plenty of humour as they joke about reality TV, kangaroos on dark coastal roads, and withholding love by “just not cooking dinner”, while still pointing back to the Big Book and the line‑by‑line AA solution. If you’re sober, struggling, or still unsure about AA, this one shows that you can be spiritual, messy, hurting and still moving forward—all at the same time.

Where might that “underlying current of God” already be present in your own life, even on the bad days?

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