The Bedevilments: A landing place (The Daily Trudge)

The Bedevilments: A landing place (The Daily Trudge)

What are the common struggles and victories in addiction recovery? This Daily Trudge instalment of the RAW Recovery Podcast drops you right into a live, chatty AA-style gathering where sobriety is taken seriously, but no one takes themselves too seriously. Host Dion starts with everyday life – shaved heads, car batteries and a messy desk – before shifting into the core theme: the "bedevilments" from page 52 of the Big Book.

Using the AA Daily Reflection "A Lifetime Process", he talks through feeling useless, being prey to misery and depression, money worries, fear, and the chaos of unruly emotions. As he puts it, "When it comes to alcoholism, we are all equal" – whether someone’s a millionaire or on skid row, the spiritual malady underneath is the same.

You’ll hear frank talk about depression, childhood trauma, and triggers, mixed with quick humour and ADHD tangents that keep things light enough to digest. Dion is honest about still working on his emotions after many years sober, calling recovery "a lifetime process" where growth is often "almost imperceptibly" slow, but very real. He stresses that alcohol was only a symptom; the deeper work is around selfishness, fear, resentment and dishonesty.

Along the way, he introduces the idea of "moral injury" – the guilt and shame of feeling you should have done more for others – and reassures people that some of that weight simply isn’t theirs to carry. The chat comments from regulars like Angel, Michelle and Scott add warmth and a sense of community: different lives, different personalities, one shared problem and one shared solution.

If you’re looking for raw honesty, a few laughs, and a reminder that you’re not the only one who still struggles after putting the drink down, this conversation might hit home. Where might your own "bedevilments" still be landing today?