Time To DecideTime To Decide
Addict II Athlete Podcast
Coach Blu and Marissa share raw reflections on the difference between deciding and truly committing to sobriety, stressing accountability, pain, and healing. Their conversation blends personal stories, philosophy and practical encouragement for those feeling stuck between relapse and recovery.
1:06:51•3 Aug 2020
Time to Decide: From Victim of Addiction to Agent of Sobriety
Episode Overview
- There is a crucial difference between being in the process of deciding and actually making a decision to remove substances and old behaviours from life.
- Pain is meant to signal what needs to change; constantly numbing it prevents people from learning, adjusting and truly healing.
- Moving from victim to “agent of sobriety” starts with brutal honesty and accountability for lies, manipulations and past actions.
- Small wins—like finishing school or completing a certificate—can slowly rebuild confidence and show that change is possible.
- Community support, healthy role models and spiritual grounding can help replace excuse-driven thinking with purpose and commitment.
“Deciding is the process of making the decision. When you’ve made a decision, that means it’s been removed. You’re done with it.”
What are the common struggles and victories in addiction recovery? This conversation between Coach Blu Robinson and Athletic Director Marissa brings those struggles front and centre, with zero sugar-coating and a lot of heart. The episode circles around one big theme: the difference between deciding and actually making a decision in recovery. Blu breaks it down using the root of the word itself: “When you’ve made a decision, that means it’s been removed.
You’re done with it,” pushing the idea that half-commitments keep people trapped in cycles of relapse, excuses and unfinished healing. You’ll hear them talk about pain in a way that might feel uncomfortably honest. They compare emotional and physical pain, share stories about parenting, deep-tissue massage, and childhood scars, all to make a single point: avoiding pain keeps people stuck.
Marissa explains how pain is meant to signal that something needs to change, while Blu argues that recovery language can sometimes keep people in a permanent “open wound” instead of letting them fully heal. The episode also leans heavily into accountability and self-worth. Blu shares how he moved from “victim to agent of sobriety” by owning lies, manipulations and past behaviours, even when it meant risking relationships.
Marissa presses on where confidence comes from when you’ve grown up believing you’re worth nothing, and together they highlight small wins—finishing adult high school, passing tough courses—as building blocks for a new identity. Faith, community and support groups like Addict II Athlete sit in the background as practical anchors rather than slogans.
The tone stays real, occasionally funny, and often raw, all aimed at people who are tired of starting over and ready to “make a decision and be done.” If you’re sitting in that uncomfortable middle—half in, half out—what would it take for you to finally cut the old life out for good?

Do you want to link to this podcast?
Get the buttons here!
More From This Show
The latest episodes from the same podcast.
Related Episodes
Similar episodes from other shows in the catalogue.
