2: The Getting Real with Hilary Show with Hilary Burns - Episode 22: The Getting Real with Hilary Show with Hilary Burns - Episode 2
UK Health Radio Podcast
Emmy-winning director Mary Madeiras talks with Hilary Burns about the Akashic Records, ego and subconscious patterns, sharing how spiritual nudges and self-love helped her leave a long TV career for soul-based work. Their conversation reflects on trauma, criticism and people‑pleasing while emphasising that each person’s inner light and worth remain intact.
40:46•9 May 2026
From Emmy Awards to Akashic Records: Mary Madeiras on Ego, Trauma and Remembering Your Light
Episode Overview
- Ego is described as accumulated ‘unlove’ that amplifies self-doubt and shame but cannot survive where genuine self-love is present.
- Subconscious patterns, often formed before age seven, can quietly repeat painful dynamics such as criticism, bullying or unavailable partners.
- Spiritual ‘nudges’ often show up as being repeatedly drawn to something outside your current life or career, and are worth taking seriously.
- Joyful actions taken just for yourself, without seeking approval, can help reconnect you with your natural sense of light and wholeness.
- Trauma does not erase your inherent light; healing begins by recognising you were always more than the worst things that happened to you.
“We come onto this planet from source, whatever we want to call it, as powerful, balanced beings, and we're always that. That cannot be banged out of us.”
Curious about how others find strength in their journey to sobriety, healing and self-worth? This conversation on the UK Health Radio Podcast brings together host Hilary Burns and guest Mary Madeiras, an Emmy-winning TV director turned Advanced Akashic Records Practitioner and author of *The Akashic Way*. The chat has an easy, conversational feel, mixing humour with some pretty big questions about who you are beneath trauma, criticism and old conditioning.
Mary explains the Akashic Records as a kind of energetic ‘field’ that holds information about every soul, drawing links to ideas like the Book of Life and Edgar Cayce’s work. She shares how losing her long-standing TV directing role was the painful shove that pushed her towards her spiritual work. A big focus is on ego and subconscious patterns.
Mary describes the ego as "a collection of unlove energy" that feeds on our self-doubt and old wounds, while the subconscious quietly runs much of our behaviour based on what it recorded in early childhood. Hilary adds her own experiences of people‑pleasing, perfectionism and feeling "never enough", making this especially relatable if you’ve struggled with shame, self-criticism or repeating unhealthy relationship patterns. Mary’s key message is surprisingly simple: your light and worth are intact, no matter what you’ve been through.
She suggests practical steps like following what genuinely brings you joy (without asking for approval) and calling on a sense of something bigger—angels, source, loved ones—to "show me the light that I am". If you’ve ever thought you’re "damaged goods" or stuck repeating the same painful story, this episode might get you asking a different question: what if you were never broken in the first place?
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