Al-Anon: Donna - NSFW

Al-Anon: Donna - NSFW

Interested in the personal battles against addiction? This raw Al‑Anon share from Donna at the Fellowship of the Spirit Conference in Queens, New York, might grab your attention straight away. Donna talks openly about being both an alcoholic in AA and a member of Al‑Anon, and how her life spun out of control long after she stopped drinking.

You’ll hear her describe the kind of obsession many people with codependency will recognise: “I was such a snoop and a fucking sneaky bitch. I found the password to his computer. I found the passcode to his cell phone. I needed to know where he was so I could be okay.” She explains how fear, anxiety and depression returned in her seventh year of sobriety, triggered by a relationship she simply could not let go of.

The turning point comes when someone asks, “What does your Al‑Anon sponsor say?” That question leads her to Lorraine, who guides her through the Big Book with a focus on codependency. Lorraine has her write in the cover of the book: “When will I start getting better?

When I stop talking about him and start talking about me.” From there, Donna starts to see her own controlling, manipulative patterns, many rooted in childhood, and how they block her from any real connection with God or other people.

She talks about doing inventory on park benches with a bright orange binder, facing her resentment toward forgiveness, and slowly realising “I still didn’t think I was enough.” There’s a powerful moment when she reads an email proving her partner’s dishonesty and, for the first time, doesn’t feel like she’s going to die. Instead, she senses that “this man never had the capacity to love me” and that, as a child of God, she is enough.

For anyone dealing with obsession over a partner, codependency, or messy love while sober, Donna’s honesty might make you ask: where am I still talking about “them” instead of me?