Chris Howe: Firefighter's Battle with Addiction and Triumph Over Trauma
I realized what I needed, and that was intensive. You know, I think he saw a real, a real need to expedite the process, and he taught me that everything you know about life, everything you know about yourself, has to be relearned like: let you beat yourself down to nothing, let's rebuild you.
Ever wondered how a firefighter copes with the immense pressures of the job while battling personal demons? Chris Howe's story is a gripping tale of resilience and recovery. For 17 years, Chris struggled with addiction to alcohol and drugs, all while serving as a firefighter. Standing out in his department for his smaller stature and tattoos, Chris led a double life, spending his off-duty hours with alcoholics, addicts, and criminals.
This secret life was fueled by deep-seated self-hatred and unresolved trauma from childhood sexual abuse and PTSD from his job. The weight of these unspoken burdens led him to three suicide attempts over three years, until he reached a turning point on the morning he planned his final attempt. Now, 11 years sober, Chris is not just a firefighter but a Captain with the Niagara Falls Fire Department and an addiction recovery speaker.
He shares his transformative journey through recovery, both inside and outside the prison system, and leads a Buddhist-inspired recovery group. Chris’s story highlights the critical need to address mental health stigma within first responder communities. He emphasizes the importance of support groups and sharing personal stories to inspire others. Tune in to hear how Chris turned his life around and now uses his experiences to help others find hope and recovery.