Its Go Time

Its Go Time

What can we learn from those who have battled addiction? This relaunch of The Agents of Recovery Podcast hits the ground running with raw honesty, awkward laughs, and some seriously real talk about pornography addiction, shame, and long-haul recovery. Coach Blu Robinson welcomes new co-host Wendell Wood, who went from listener, to client, to team member, and now to co-host.

Wendell shares how the podcast first reached him in a “really dark time”, how his addiction to pornography and sexual behaviour contributed to his divorce, and why white-knuckling faith practices and box-ticking in a 12-step group eventually left him stuck.

As he puts it, “I had the knowledge, but the wisdom is what I was lacking.” You’ll hear Wendell break down a different way of looking at addiction: not as a moral failure, but as a desperate attempt to feel regulated when life feels overwhelming. He talks about joining Husband Material, learning that “every trigger is a trailhead”, and tracing triggers back to childhood sexual abuse, religious pressure, and a lifelong urge to be the “peacemaker” who never causes problems.

Coach Blu and Wendell talk openly about pornography stigma in faith communities, why secrecy keeps men sick, and how curiosity beats self-condemnation. There’s genuine humour too, from meeting his fiancée Janice in an Addict II Athlete garage full of aid-station food, to joking about “I’m not a runner” right before joining the running team. Underneath the laughs sits a serious message: recovery isn’t a finish line, it’s an ongoing climb with new horizons.

For anyone feeling like their marriage is over, or that they’ve “ruined everything”, this conversation offers grounded hope, practical language for understanding dysregulation, and a reminder that you’re far from alone. What if your next step is simply to get curious about your pain rather than hide it?