Sober and Unashamed: I Wish She Would Die
Sober and Unashamed: I Wish She Would Die

Untoxicated Podcast

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Untoxicated Podcast

Matt & Sheri Salis

Sheri and Matt Salis just wanted a normal life – normal marriage, normal careers, a normal house and happy kids. Instead, they lived a life of lies and terror as they struggled with Matt’s alcoholism. While their experience sounds rare, with over 15 millions problem drinkers in America, their alcoholic marriage was all too normal. Matt has been writing about their experiences in alcoholism and recovery for years. On the Untoxicated Podcast, Sheri and Matt talk about it, too. No subjects are off limits as the couple discusses the trauma of active addiction, the pain of early recovery, the destruction and rebuilding of trust, and the impact on their intimate relationship. If you love an alcoholic, the disease will terrorize your relationship. We hope you’ll listen and find healing in our shared stories. For more support from Sheri and Matt, check out their Echoes of Recovery program providing connection and healing for the loved ones of alcoholics.

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Facing Dark Truths: "I Wish She Would Die"

Episode Overview

Families suffer silently while focusing on the addict.
Wishing for a loved one's death reflects deep emotional pain.
Addiction's impact extends beyond the individual to family dynamics.
Honest discussions can aid in processing trauma.
Support networks are crucial for recovery.

“"To wish for the death of a loved one is to face my own mortality and accept that my words might be my own damnation."”

Curious about how others navigate their sobriety journey? The Untoxicated Podcast's latest episode, "Sober and Unashamed: I Wish She Would Die," takes listeners on a raw exploration of the emotional toll addiction can take on families. Matt and Sheri Salis share their experiences of living with alcoholism, touching on the unspoken trauma and silent suffering endured by loved ones.

This episode brings to light the hidden struggles of families dealing with addiction, often overshadowed by the focus on the addict themselves. The Salis couple doesn't shy away from discussing difficult topics, including the shocking admission of wishing a partner would die—a sentiment shared by many who have faced similar circumstances. Through candid storytelling, they reveal the devastating impact of addiction on relationships and the desperate yearning for relief.

The conversation is both chilling and relatable, offering a glimpse into the emotional complexity of living with an alcoholic partner. Matt and Sheri's honesty encourages others to confront their own feelings and seek support in recovery. If you're interested in understanding the intricate dynamics of addiction within families, this episode is a must-listen. You'll find yourself questioning societal norms and pondering the depth of human resilience. So, what does it mean to truly face the darkest thoughts and emerge stronger?

Listen to find out.

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