Steve L “I Am Not Who I Think I Am”

Steve L “I Am Not Who I Think I Am”

In this insightful episode, Steve L delves into the complexities of identity and self-perception, exploring the notion that 'I am not who I think I am.' Speaking at the Usual Suspects men's retreat in Tennessee, Steve offers a candid reflection on his journey through Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) and the path to emotional sobriety.

He begins by acknowledging the strong feelings that accompany his experience at the retreat, likening it to moments of vulnerability and resilience, akin to Michael Jordan's flu game. Steve shares a profound realization that the steps in AA help chip away at the barriers preventing individuals from discovering their true selves—the 'divine spark within.' Through personal anecdotes, he illustrates how self-consciousness is learned and often leads to a metaphorical covering up, reminiscent of a child's innocent bath time confidence.

This metaphor serves as a powerful reminder of the innate authenticity we possess at birth, which often becomes obscured by societal expectations and personal insecurities. Emotional sobriety, Steve explains, is not merely the absence of substances but a return to the natural state of being, unencumbered by learned self-consciousness. He recounts the importance of honest self-reflection and the courage to confront perceived blemishes and faults.

In doing so, individuals can transcend the 'trance of unworthiness' and establish a genuine relationship with themselves and others. Furthermore, Steve emphasizes the value of sharing vulnerabilities within the AA community, highlighting that the very aspects we fear might alienate us can, in fact, bring us closer together. This idea is encapsulated in the notion of 'brothers in our defects,' recognizing that true connection stems from shared struggles rather than perceived virtues.

Ultimately, Steve encourages listeners to embrace authenticity, put down the burden of self-protection, and continue to grow while understanding they are already okay. His message is one of hope and empowerment, urging individuals to relax and be who they truly are.