Struck Sober [Season 11, Episode 6]Struck Sober [Season 11, Episode 6]
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Heidi describes being "struck sober," later relapsing on prescription medication, and finding renewed purpose through AA service and technology. The episode also touches on the origin of the Twelve Steps and what Tradition Eight means for sharing the recovery message.
34:52•10 Aug 2026
Struck Sober and Plugged Into Service: Heidi’s AA Journey
Episode Overview
- Physical sobriety without working the Twelve Steps can leave a person without emotional tools, increasing vulnerability to relapse.
- Resetting a sobriety date after non-alcohol substances can be a life-saving act of honesty for some people.
- Service to family and AA can function as "living amends," helping rebuild relationships and purpose in recovery.
- Technology, including online meetings and workshops, can greatly expand how AA carries its message to alcoholics.
- AA’s Twelve Steps were expanded from six to close "all exits" for alcoholic rationalisation, making key principles harder to dodge.
“"Because I was struck sober, there was a big part of me, that thing we call ego, that felt that I didn't need the rest of what AA had to offer."”
What drives someone to seek a life without alcohol? This episode follows Heidi T from Walnut Creek, California, as she talks about being "struck sober" and learning the hard way that alcoholism is, in her words, "a progressive, chronic, potentially fatal disease." She describes a 30-year drinking career that looked successful on the outside, yet was full of hangovers, blackouts and secrecy, including hiding a new same‑sex relationship while drinking heavily.
Heidi explains how the obsession to drink lifted quickly when she first came to AA, which fed her ego and led her to skip the Twelve Steps for years. Nine years into physical sobriety, a relapse on prescription pain medication forced her to reset her sobriety date, seek inpatient rehab, and rethink everything: "I said to myself, this is life or death for me.
I need to change everything." From there, service became central – caring for her ill father, supporting her 90‑year‑old mother, and making "living amends" by showing up for AA in ways she hadn't before. A big highlight is Heidi’s role in helping her home group move online during the pandemic, standing up a full Zoom schedule in a weekend.
Alongside Heidi’s story, the episode answers a listener question from Drew R about why AA has Twelve Steps, sharing Bill W’s account of writing them on a yellow tablet and breaking the old six‑step programme into smaller pieces so "the son of a gun couldn't duck any essential point." Short reflections from Kevin, Mary M and David on Tradition Eight round things out, stressing that AA’s message is shared "for fun and for free," even while special workers are paid for practical service.
That experience led her into general service and the National AA Technology Workshop, which she describes as a space where Alcoholics share tech skills to help carry the AA message, including hybrid and bilingual events. If you’ve ever wondered whether ego, service, or technology have anything to do with your sobriety, this conversation might make you rethink how you’re showing up for your own recovery community. Where could saying "yes" take you next?
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