Day 1 - Me and my life with cannabis addiction.Day 1 - Me and my life with cannabis addiction.
Egoless
Terry Watkins shares his first day quitting cannabis, reflecting on addiction, depression, ego and the practical steps he plans to take. The episode sets up a daily, unfiltered diary aimed at supporting others who are trying to stop weed too.
23:49•14 Sept 2020
Day 1 with Terry: Starting an Honest Break from Cannabis
Episode Overview
- Terry plans a daily, unedited audio diary to share his real-time experience of quitting cannabis and dealing with withdrawals.
- He identifies money, energy, motivation and the desire to regain control over his ego as key reasons for stopping.
- Rather than declaring permanent abstinence, he focuses on the mindset of “I’m not going to be smoking today” to reduce pressure.
- Meditation is set as a central tool to manage cravings and low mood, with visual reminders to build a consistent habit.
- He hopes that quitting cannabis and rebuilding his hobbies and goals will improve his depression before considering medication.
“Drugs are a tool, and if you use the tool wrong, they make you into a tool.”
Curious about the personal battles against addiction? This episode of Egoless drops you straight into Day 1 of Terry Watkins’ attempt to quit cannabis, with a raw, unedited monologue recorded on a night shift. Terry sets out his plan plainly: this is meant to be a daily podcast, giving real-time updates on quitting weed, the withdrawals, and what life looks like as he tries to rebuild his motivation, hobbies and sense of self.
He’s aiming to create what he couldn’t find himself – a voice “there going through it with them” for people who feel isolated in their weed addiction.
You’ll hear him lay out honest reasons for stopping: money, energy, motivation and, as he puts it, wanting “control over my ego and my desires.” He talks about how cannabis has crept into every corner of his routine, from needing a joint before basic tasks to sleeping 12 hours a day and feeling like his life has stalled for years. There’s also a strong focus on mental health and spirituality.
Terry speaks openly about feeling depressed, his reluctance to jump straight to antidepressants, and his hope that quitting cannabis and building a daily meditation habit might shift his mood. He even describes sticking a big “meditate” reminder on his whiteboard so he can catch himself in moments of craving. Stylistically, this is loose, conversational and completely unpolished – he admits there’s no script and no editing.
That’s part of the appeal: you get a genuine snapshot of someone on the very first day of change, doubts and all. As he sums up with a bit of humour: “Drugs are a tool, and if you use the tool wrong, they make you into a tool.” If you’ve ever wondered what the first 24 hours of quitting really feels like, this honest diary-style episode might be exactly what you need. Where does your own Day 1 start?
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