My Person of the year, 2026: [REDACTED]! (Tue, 20/10/2026)

My Person of the year, 2026: [REDACTED]! (Tue, 20/10/2026)

How do people cope with the challenges of staying sober when their heart is in pieces? This diary-style episode from Luke Hand gives a raw snapshot of one ordinary day that feels anything but ordinary to him. Luke talks through his Tuesday, 20th October 2026, with his usual structure: mood rated 5 out of 10, energy at 7, and a simple moment of gratitude – “pineapple with mint & sugar as a snack at work.

Haven’t had that for a while.” It’s the kind of tiny pleasure that often keeps people steady in early evenings or sober routines. But the real focus here is heartbreak. Luke names [REDACTED] as his “official person of the year for 2026”, and shares just how much he misses them.

He reflects on how seeing them at work “used to make my day each day and now they’re gone,” and the sadness of feeling like, to them, he’s “just some loser who they used to work with.” The episode sits in that uncomfortable mix of longing, self-doubt and obsession that many people in recovery will recognise.

Luke jokes darkly about wishing he could “eternal sunshine ever meeting them” and feeling “like a bedlamite about it,” highlighting how intense crushes or attachments can feel when alcohol is no longer an option to blur the edges. There’s a touch of humour too, as he muses about asking at a crystal shop “for something to treat this heartache” or even signing up for an AI companion designed with [REDACTED]-like traits.

Underneath the jokes, though, sits a very human ache: missing someone who might not feel the same. If you’ve ever felt fixated on someone, especially while trying to keep your recovery on track, you’ll probably see a bit of yourself in Luke’s story. What small comforts, like his pineapple snack, are keeping you grounded right now?