Crystal Meth, HIV and Spiritual Awakening | Edmundo’s Recovery StoryCrystal Meth, HIV and Spiritual Awakening | Edmundo’s Recovery Story
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Edmundo shares his journey from psychedelic ceremonies and early self-acceptance to HIV, crystal meth addiction, academic discrimination and an abusive relationship. He talks about hallucinations, seeking help and finding a mix of therapy, medication, spirituality and everyday self-care to support his recovery.
58:30•22 May 2026
Crystal Meth, HIV and Many Paths to Heal: Edmundo’s Story
Episode Overview
- Psychedelic experiences in Mexico helped Edmundo accept his sexuality and see there was nothing wrong with being gay or feminine.
- An HIV diagnosis, discrimination in graduate studies and emotionally heavy HIV/prison work contributed to depression and increased crystal meth use.
- Crystal meth became a way to avoid feelings, leading to sleepless binges, paranoia and auditory hallucinations that signalled a clear need for help.
- Edmundo highlights that 12-step-style groups support some people he knows, but his own progress came more through therapy, medication and personal practices like Reiki, yoga and cooking.
- He stresses knowing personal limits, using small acts of self-care as "self-love", and accepting that "it's okay if you can't" meet every ambitious goal in early recovery.
“"There are many paths to heal. The most important thing, I think, is that you really want to heal and stop."”
How do individuals from all walks of life battle addiction? This conversation follows Edmundo, a Mexican biologist and Reiki practitioner living with HIV in Canada, as he talks candidly about psychedelics, crystal meth, trauma, and trying to stay sober without losing himself.
You’ll hear him describe a formative mushroom ceremony in the mountains of Oaxaca, where he hugged a tree, felt his skin turn to bark, and came to accept himself as a gay man: "I understand that I'm okay… there's nothing wrong to be gay." From there, the story shifts to party drugs, spiritual work, and the shock of an HIV diagnosis linked to a partner who stopped treatment without telling him.
Life appears to stabilise with good jobs in HIV research and later a clinical coordinator role in Montreal, yet repeated discrimination in academia and exposure to intense patient stories start to wear him down.
During the pandemic, curiosity about crystal meth gradually turns into using alone "just to don't feel", with sleepless binges, paranoia, and hearing "little voices" in the bathroom fan pushing him to admit, "okay, Edmundo, you need help." He talks about an abusive relationship with a narcissistic partner and how cutting ties, accessing a social worker, psychologist, and medication reduced his use dramatically.
Edmundo also offers a grounded take on recovery options: NA-style groups support some people he knows, but he’s honest that they didn’t fit him. Instead, he leans on therapy, medical support, cooking for himself, spiritual practices like Reiki and yoga, and realistic self-talk about his limits. This is raw, reflective storytelling aimed at people who live with substance use, HIV, trauma, or all three—and anyone wondering if there really are "many paths to heal".
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