"I Had a Living Funeral": How Surrender Healed My Deepest Trauma with Lillian Savoie"I Had a Living Funeral": How Surrender Healed My Deepest Trauma with Lillian Savoie
Retrieving Sanity
Host Keegan talks with intuitive teacher Lillian Savoie about trauma, surrender and how a living funeral reshaped her understanding of pain, purpose and recovery. Their conversation blends spirituality, sobriety and practical rituals for anyone ready to listen more deeply to their inner voice.
52:36•17 Apr 2026
Living Funeral, Letting Go and Listening Within with Lillian Savoie
Episode Overview
- Pain can be a messenger pointing to needed change rather than something to numb or ignore.
- Trusting intuition may mean sacrificing comfort, image and old roles to honour what’s true.
- Physical symptoms can reflect emotional and financial stress, and sometimes shift with a mindset change.
- Chasing ‘more’ in houses, cars or status can fuel addiction patterns, while simplicity can bring relief.
- Short daily rituals of silence, movement and intention help move from overthinking into the heart.
“Pain is such a good messenger, but I really have graduated from wanting to live in pain.”
Curious about how others navigate their sobriety journey? Retrieving Sanity brings on intuitive teacher and healer Lillian Savoie to share a raw, spiritual, and often funny look at how surrender changed everything for her.
Lillian talks about growing up in a high-control religious home in the American South, becoming the breadwinner, getting the house, car and baby – and then realising moments after giving birth, “as soon as she popped out, I was like, I need a divorce.” She and host Keegan swap stories about Disney-fuelled expectations, postpartum shock, and how wine, work and workouts became her way of avoiding the truth she already felt in her gut.
Now, Lillian teaches intuition, and she explains how trusting her inner voice meant sacrificing a career, money and image, and facing family judgement for her spiritual path. She shares how pain and illness showed up as messengers whenever she ignored herself, and how shifting her mindset – rather than just treating symptoms – changed her relationship with her body and finances.
One of the most striking parts of the conversation is Lillian’s “living funeral”, a guided death simulation where she says she met Source as “a gold being of light” and understood that everything starts in the energetic body before it shows up in physical life. This experience reshaped her view of purpose, death, and what truly matters more than cars, houses or constant “more”.
Along the way, she and Keegan chat tarot, doom scrolling, codependency, and the difference between tangled relationships and “co‑commitment”. Lillian closes by sharing the simple daily ritual that keeps her grounded: 15 minutes of quiet time, tea, gentle movement and coming back to her heart. If you’re curious about intuition, tired of living in pain (physical or emotional), or wrestling with letting go of old stories, this conversation might have you asking: what would surrender look like in your life?
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