Impact of Abandonment, Parenting, & More (Feat. Matt Part 1)Impact of Abandonment, Parenting, & More (Feat. Matt Part 1)
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Matt shares how BPD, ADHD and ASD diagnoses helped him make sense of a past marked by bullying, abandonment and binge drinking. He reflects on parenting, emotion regulation and the complicated relief of finally feeling seen.
37:58•9 Aug 2026
Matt’s Story: Borderline, Neurodivergence and Growing Up With Abandonment
Episode Overview
- Diagnosis can feel difficult, yet naming BPD, ADHD and ASD gave Matt a sense of validation and a starting point for change.
- Childhood bullying, volatility at home and an absent parent contributed to deep-rooted abandonment fears that still affect adult relationships.
- ADHD medication reduced Matt’s anxiety and improved focus, showing how treating overlapping conditions can support recovery.
- DBT skills help, but Matt finds that giving emotions time and, where possible, space is often the most effective way for intense feelings to pass.
- Becoming a parent highlighted his struggle with identity and autonomy, balancing the role of father with still wanting room to be himself.
“I actually cried the first time I read the symptoms of BPD, because I was like, okay, I feel seen. This is who I am.”
How do people find strength in their journey to sobriety? Matt’s story brings together mental health, neurodivergence and an uneasy relationship with alcohol in a way that many people in recovery will recognise. Across a candid chat with host Sara Abbott, Matt, a 43-year-old dad from England, talks through years of feeling "different" without having words for it.
After losing his mum, splitting from his partner and struggling with rejection in dating, he reached a crisis point: "I hit a real low point… I need to sort of get some help or, you know, I'm potentially going to do something silly." That moment pushed him towards his GP, antidepressants, and eventually a diagnosis of emotionally unstable personality disorder (borderline), followed by ADHD and ASD.
He describes reading about BPD for the first time and bursting into tears: "I actually cried the first time I read the symptoms of BPD, because I was like, okay, I feel seen. This is who I am." For anyone wrestling with labels, his insistence that diagnosis brought validation, not just stigma, will feel important. Matt reflects on growing up "dirt poor", being heavily bullied, an absent father who now has a secret second family, and a volatile home life.
Later came late-90s binge drinking, drugs and chaotic sex, all feeding into that classic borderline "recipe for disaster" Sarah jokes about. He’s honest about the impact on relationships and parenting, describing how a delayed text or fewer kisses at the end of a message can trigger intense fear of abandonment and spiralling emotion.
You’ll also hear how ADHD medication eased his anxiety, how DBT helped but doesn’t magically fix emotional storms, and why he sometimes just needs time and space for feelings to pass. If you see your own history in his mix of booze, heartbreak and diagnoses, what would it be like to give yourself the same honesty and curiosity Matt is finally offering himself?
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